Hey, peeps….Ally…, I is missin u too purple bunny…. James, wat up brotha?….Sutha, hey I thought u didn’t like bloggin man…. :-)Anyways, How yall doin? Better than me I hope. U see the day before yesterday…, I had this weird dream. Don’t worry… it was quite “dry” I assure u….:-) Anyways, in my dream I was in the forest, n I was talking to a horse…yes a horse…. N he was telling me about his brother who was a race horse n stuff…, n I was listenin… Then he suddenly asked me, “What r u doin here,man?”. N i was like, “Jus chillin , dats all”. Then he said ,“ No, what r U doin here?” And I didn’t understand him at first. “ I mean Why r u alive?” he says. “Ooo, dats wat u mean.., is dat such a bad thing??” I said. Den he said, “No,of course not, but why are U here?” And we talked a little…, then my alarm rings n im a little late for class…:-)
Anyways, dat question really intrigued me. Why am I here? Why do I go to coll n chill wit frens n study n go out n stuff? Im gonna die in like 50 to 60 years anyway, considering I start eating healthy (not gonna happen)…., which isn’t a long time at all actually…., only 1,537,920,000 seconds to go, then ill be leavin this dump…. So Y study or even do anything for that matter??…. Coz when a person dies no one remembers him by…, I mean sure they remember him for a couple of years some a bit more but after that…, he’s forgotten…lost in time…never existed….. N I kinda feel sad abt that…, but I cant do much, no one can, coz no one has the power to stop this screwed up cycle…. So all this boils up to the same question, y r we here??… Well I lost some sleep over this question last nite…, but I think I finally got the answer…, I think la…so here goes….
We're not here to fulfill our parents dreams or to get a name for ourselves… I mean come on, do u actually think we were born jus to get straight A’s for spm.., or to get a scholarship to go to some fancy place like the UK or Europe?? I dun think so ppl. I think, we were born to get a chance at happiness. Coz the truth is we study to get good results to make our folks happy to make ourselves happy. Or to some weirdos study jus to make themselves happy… :-)Happiness...yes, it mite sound weird…, but I think its true. Have u ever felt happy.., I mean really happy as in contented…, to feel whole n complete…, n for one brief moment..,jus catch urself smiling without even realizing it. Few of us actually get to experience that warm great feeling. If any of u guys reading this crap has actually felt that way…, it could be a first kiss or a football club of urs winning the champions league or even the slightest affection shown by a pet…, if any of yall, felt true happiness even for a brief moment…, say yes out loud so u can hear urself say it. Because I truly think that we r here to find happiness. We’re not living our lives for others, we’re livin it for ourselves… No use wastin our time being sad over stuff that happened in the past, coz our time is extremely limited. Here’s a short story I heard. A boy finds a 50 buck note…., he wastes it on ice-cream n tells da icecream guy to keep da change…, his fren asks him y he did that. He says “Who cares man? I found it,anyways. It came free,dude.” The boy later died of food poisoning…….im kiddin….Figure out the moral urself. The End. So before u die Ask urself if u’ve found happiness…, coz believe me, it’s the best feelin in the world…, u feel like the sun is rising, lighting up everything in its path with warm yellow light right after the rain, n dat beats sinkin yer teeth into a freshly baked muffin anyday….........:-) PS: I'll be postin some pics up soon.., after i figure out how, that is. N to my loyal readers.., u guys rock!! Tc, my brothas n sistas!! Peace out....:-)